March 30, 2010

stress journal

Ok so for extra credit my student success class gets to do a stress journal. So here is my stress journal...(I figured I should do it on here)
Stress level right now is probably about a 5 mainly just because I know that I have to work tomorrow and also when I'm not working I have to be here for my house when we are getting our tv installed with dish! it's exciting, but I really don't like to have to do much on wednesdays when I work in the morning and then back at the evening. Oh well. Probably another thing that is stressing me out is a test in Greek. :P I think I know the stuff, but I have to study for it, and well I am going to do some of it tonight (the vocab words) and some of it tomorrow after work. Yes I know cramming doesn't work for most people, but it kinda does for me. My brain does the best when I just work and work until I think I can't anymore and then I take the couple of hour break before the test and then review for thirty minutes beforehand and then it's fresh. I really don't stress during the test, it's more before hand than during the actual test.

March 29, 2010

My paper

done, I got a 100

March 25, 2010

devotional day one

book: The Deity Formerly known as: God by Jarrett Stevens
chapter: before you begin and cop around the corner
interesting quote on the first page "God created people in his own image on the sixth day, and every day since, people have returned the favor" - Blaise Pascal
cop around the corner
haha i like this author... here's a quote (he's talking about people that have never gotten a ticket in thier lives) "On the slim chance that this describes you, then please read on with a sence of empathy and understanding for the rest of us...and feel free at any time to wipe that smug smile off your face". ha-ha I just can't say enough, but that is grand!
"Unless there is a God by whom "right" and "wrong" can be reliably assessed, moral judgments can be no more than opinion, influenced by upbringing, training, and propaganda" - JB Phillips
That is interesting, because I have been kind of questioning where morals came from. I mean I know that they come from your upbringing, but I mean what makes one brother a pot head while the other goes to church? If it was all up to upbringing then we wouldn't see that big of a divide. i don't know, maybe I'm thinking through this too simply. I know a lot of this goes into our nature, but it is also dependant upon God. This kind of goes into what we were talking about in New Testament today. We talked about infant mortality and all that and then that led us to human nature and how we all inherit it from Adam and well because of Adam, Jesus had to come and show us the truth. He had to come to show us the way that we should live and also more than that He had to come to die for our sins and take away the punishment we deserve.
The author, Jarrett Stevenson goes on to speak about how we all change when we see that cop around the corner, we all instinctivly start going through our check list like is my seatbelt on, what's my speed, do I have my licence and registration, are his lights going off yet? The funny thing is, is I do go through a check list like this. I see that cop and I'm just like ok slow down, seat belt? check speed? check haha. He talks about when we DO get pulled over how we all change in some way some how. I find myself the few times that in this last year of my driving history that I have been driving, I become nervous and start telling the cop why I was doing it, and yes I realized that I was going that fast but I was passing someone that probably didn't need to be passed, and that here is my licence and yes sir I can get that insurance out for you. It's kind of strange how we all become so polite once we are pulled over lol. I have gotten so caught up in what he's saying that I haven't really been blogging it, so well I'll catch you up on it once I'm done...lol or if I have any thoughts I need to get out.
Alright so I have one more quote and then I will sign off (I'm sure if you have read all of this you are kind of just like alright, do you have ADD or something haha, but I suppose if I actually have readers, then you already have picked up on my random writing style..)
This comes from a section on the Ten Commandments: "Sadly what was once understood as a gift from God has become a wall that separates us from him" I think that's very interesting... I have never really thought about it, but we all have those ten commands as something that we need to follow or we sin. They seem to be the basic laws of the old testament and we still try to live to them today. I know a lot of people who are just terrified at the thought of breaking a law that we have on earth, and even more than that they are afraid to break one of God's laws. We can't live in fear, because well while yes I think you need to have reverant fear of God, you don't need to be in FEAR FEAR. Because well if you are then you are also missing the whole loving side of God. (which I will go through tomorrow I believe) I think that you have to have a good middle ground on these two things, but there is a differance in being reverantly fearful of God (after all, he is God!) and being terrified of him. The first one means that because he is God, you have this respect and adoration that comes out of that fear. It isn't like my phobia of bees, it's more of a respect aspect of it. This might be the former Catholic in me speaking right now, but I seriously believe that you have to have that respect of God before you can even start to look at him. Ok I'm starting to ramble, so I'll end this post.
:) have a great day
SEF

March 24, 2010

random

haha ok so I'm bored right now, so here are some of my random thoughts. I really have decided that I don't have anything better to do, so I might as well blog ha-ha.
So..I have three dogs in my house right now, Alice, Harley, and Sissy. Alice is my puppy and Sissy and Harley are my dad's girlfriend's. It's really funny to watch Alice play with Sissy. They are in the middle of trying to find out who is in charge of the house. Alice and Sissy have both realized that Harley is too much of a wuss to take control of the dang house, and so they are trying to find who will win. It's really crazy to look at Sissy from the side because Alice looks so much like her. (Harley and Sissy are Alice's parents.) The dogs are always fighting over who will sit next to me, and I'm sure that it's some kind of power position, but oh well. I'm just going to allow Alice and Sissy to figure this stuff out.
The weather is terrible outside and I'm locked inside until later today. It sucks. I love warm weather and well it stinks when we have days like today. I have nothing to do but this dang landyard and homework, and I don't wish to do either, so you get a pointless blog from me :). I would fall asleep but I wouldn't wake up in time for work, and I know that I wouldn't. I really don't know what I'm doing tonight. I know that I have to be there at 6 and I start in L's room and then move to the Link. I don't know much more than that. I don't know where this dang room "Link" is, but I suppose I'll find it! :)
I find it very funny that I am teaching at a Baptist church, I go to a nondenominational church, and then I go to a Methodist church's singles group. Haha. It's very interesting. I promise I'm not waivering in my docterine, it's just that I basically have NO docterine. I have faith, but I had a docterine before in my life, and I really don't care for it. I suppose that's why I go to a nondenominational church :)

work day...

Ok so wednesdays are probably my most busy days by far, or atleast they are about to be haha. I work in the mornings, and then starting today at 6 I am going to work until 10 at night!! Wow! Hours are amazing! I am definately picking them up! Just this week I have gotten 8 hours that I don't normally work! I like it haha. My boss keeps on asking me if it's ok and that she doesn't want to burn me out lol, but I am glad for the hours. Probably right now I should probably be cleaning my bathroom, but I don't want to, I'll do it after I'm done with this blog haha. I'm going to start adding things about my devotion on here just so that I can remember to do both, maybe this will keep me accountable on both of them. I really try to do both of these things everyday, but it gets hard haha. I suppose anything that is worth it is going to be hard lol. I got my greek homework done yesterday (yay!!), so now tonight after work I'm going to write my paper for New Testament and read the book, it should be (fun?).. haha I really have another week, but I'm afraid that if I don't get M the book, she will get a bit mad. Speaking of the book, I should probably find that lol. I'm going to use that as my devotional today, it's just going to be tonight lol. I do have a book that I want to read it's called "The Deity Formerly Known as God". It is about how we take God out of his place and make him less important and put all of these differant relationships on him, it should be interesting. I think I will learn a lot. So..about the dogs: Alice is getting jealous about the other dogs loving on me, and well right now she's sitting next to me as I type this out, I think she's wanting me to put her outside for a potty break, but she's fine, she's just not use to being an indoor dog haha. Harley is staring at me from across the room, I seriously am just like HELLO?? haha. He's ok though... Sissy is....well she's Sissy, she doesn't really do much other than what she wants to do. (I personally think that she was suppose to be a cat, because that's how she acts unless she gets jealous and wants some loving too.) So I suppose that would be my life right now...have to do a New Testament paper, get caught up on Greek, and also a small project for Student Success that is due TOMORROW. That class really makes me mad. I don't like the teacher and well it's just a waste of time. I suppose that is all from me right now, I will talk to you when I get off of work tonight probably :)
Life is great, and God has blessed me,
SEF

March 23, 2010

Life catch up

Last time that we talk I was thinking about moving out with my friends and I was worried about my future. Well I decided that moving out right now isn't the best thing for me and I have decided that running my own childcare center is really what I want to do. When I started recently looking back on my life it really is something that has kind of been pointed by my memories. Everything from when I was eight and wanted to play with a three year older next door to help his parents have some time to themselves to this job that I hold now at the church. I now understand what I need to do (atleast for now haha) :). I need to get a certificate and then I'll get my associates in Religion and then just have to get everything prepared to send into the state.
Quick catch up: I have decided to retake Greek, I have decided that I will probably make a better grade on the class if I can retake it. Hopefully get an A! haha. I need an A lol. No one knows how bad I need an A. I am working so hard for an A, six weeks! Six weeks left!!! I can't wait for summer, I can't explain how much summer sounds so amazing! Alright that's school, now on home life: I decided not to move out, I can't tell how my father thinks of this, and I don't know how my friends feel about this either, but both of them can get over it haha. My dad moved in his girl friend and she's a nice enough woman, but I still don't know what to think about it. I suppose it's ok, it brought some normalcy to my life and I now have three dogs in the house. The dogs are always so crazy, they just don't know what to do with themselves. I just have to learn how to wear them down! ;) I am watching Julie and Julia and pretty much that's what made me think of this haha. I really enjoyed it! I need to put money in my bank account though so I don't get overdraft fees haha. Stupid movie! gah! haha gotta remember to return it so I don't get fined for another night tomorrow :/ surely I will be alright! idk...either way I'll just pay for it lol.